Here is a journal entry from a mediation last night.
I went into the mediation with the intention to connect with Zach is any way. Waited and nothing happened so I thought of a memory with Zach that would be a strong link, "taking him home from the hospital after he was born." instantly I was there, we were in the hospital room and collecting all our things and walking out the door along the corridor. The experience was in real time and seemed to last for about 45 minutes, until I stopped thinking of that experience and moved to another. It was like I relived it in perfect detail, all 5 senses and all the emotion of the moment. it was extraordinary. I had all sorts of thoughts as i "relived" the moment, things that are not that important e.g. the interior of the car was green, such as " why did we buy a car with a green interior??" so I experienced the moment again but also reflected on the moment at the same time. I choose to go to another memory and again perfect clarity, as i was experiencing it for the first time, but also analyzing the experience real time. I jumped to several other moments in this current life and each time the experience was the same, and deliberately chose an event or two that were not particularly significant, and mundane. still the same clarity, I knew I was not retrieving this detail from my brain, it was like I was getting a download and then hitting the play button to relive it. The mediation lasted for about 30 minutes, but it felt like many many hours.
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