It was April 30th, 2024....the five year anniversary of Dan's passing, and it was a tough day, for sure.
My energy was low, and I felt kind of numb as I went through the motions of the day..
We never know what to expect on these 'days', and each milestone has been different for me.
5 years felt like a BIG milestone even before it arrived, and as it loomed, it picked at the scab that covered my wounded heart.
As the day progressed, I wondered why things felt so heavy, and because I felt so heavy, I couldn't feel Dan's presence as much as usual and this only served to make me more upset....that vicious downward spiral we're all familiar with, I'm sure. But in true Dan style, later that evening, he let me know that even though I couldn't feel him...he was there all the same .... 🥹
As the day was coming to a close and I was back home in my own company, I said to Dan...
"I've not had any real signs from you today...and I mean signs that I can SEE or HEAR in this physical world...so I'm DEMANDING one before I go to bed!' I laughed as I said these words out loud because I knew he'd be laughing too and saying, "Mum....You are sooooo demanding!"
I put the World Snooker Championships on the TV to distract me and settled down to watch it.
A moment or two later, I heard a loud knock in the room.
I said out loud to Dan... "Nah... that's not enough of a sign. If you want me to know it's you, you'll have to knock 3 times. " 😅
And the next moment.... I burst out laughing and grabbed the remote control to rewind and record the words of the commentator on the TV!
Dan ... I know I'm biased ... but you are pretty damn awesome, that's for sure...
Have a listen to the 8-second clip below ...
Val
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